A short while ago, maybe a month or two, I publicly shamed myself on Twitter for not having a large enough output this year. In 2015, I had published a novel and appeared in three anthologies, and released one of those stories as a stand-alone title. Halfway through 2016, I was feeling the pinch of having hardly any releases at all this year. So far, I've released only one short story, Let Go, and a short story titled "Black Site" was published in CLONES: The Anthology. Although I was busy writing, not much of it was making its way out into the market and it was making me a feel bit depressed. I felt like I either wasn't doing enough or wasn't getting stuff done (partially true, but mildly inaccurate), and the weight of it was like a vise around my neck. The big pro-tip to being a writer is one simple rule: Finish Your Shit.
I was not finishing my shit, or at least not the one big shit I had in me, but not necessarily for lack of trying. I've been working on a novel since March and it's become my own personal Moby Dick. Not because it's a wild, untamed beast that I have sworn revenge against, but because it's been such a long, arduous journey in trying to finish it off. I know the rough shape of it, and when I'm working on it, it feels good and (mostly) right. And it's not even a lack of focus or desire to continue plugging away at it.
Mostly, it's because I allow myself to keep getting interrupted with other projects. This is by no means a bad thing, nor is it a complaint. If anything, it is perhaps a very good problem to have. I've put this novel on hold several times, and have done so once again, in order to tackle a story and an invitation that is simply too good to pass up. Back near the start of writing said novel, a lonely old man named Everett Hart told me a story and his voice demanded that I write Let Go. So I did. And then I got invited to contribute to CLONES: The Anthology. I had a killer idea for that one, so, again, the novel got put on the back burner. Ultimately, it was certainly worth it. This book became an Amazon Best Seller in their sci-fi anthology category, and, for a very brief time, I was a Top 100 science fiction author over there. Pretty cool!
I've gone back and forth with this novel-in-progress a few times now, interrupting the process once more very recently in order to write a novella that captured my fancy. It's called Broken Shells and it needs lots of editing, but the story itself is largely finished. I began writing this shortly before my mother passed away, and in the weeks following her death it provided a much-needed retreat for me, and even a little bit of therapy. All that remains now are the finishing touches. That, too, is now on hold, thanks to an invitation that was extended my way late last week.
At the moment, I am roughly 3,000 words into REDACTED. I'm not sure what I can or cannot discuss about this work yet, so it's perhaps best to say nothing. It's the kind of deal though, that when you're invited in, you do not turn it down. And since a dude at Amazon called me to discuss this work specifically goes a long way in telling me it could maybe possibly be a big deal. The kind of project that you simply do not say No to and walk away from. If anything, you drop whatever you're doing and get to work. Of course, it's entirely possible I'm blowing smoke up my own ass. I get the impression though that this is at least important to Amazon, and it could certainly have the potential for more readers to discover my work, which is a fantastic reward all by itself. So, yeah, I dropped everything and got to work! REDACTED will be novella length, and while it's in my wheelhouse of both science fiction and horror, it's of a particular sub-genre I haven't written in previously. There are a few hurdles to overcome, and plenty of research to do. Thus far, it's been a lot of fun, though, and I'm excited to see where it goes. I'll have plenty more to say about this in the coming months, so be sure to stay tuned, or sign-up for my newsletter to get the big scoop straight to your inbox.
My main problem though has been reconciling the disparity in my work versus my output. I've been busy, even if I don't yet have a lot to show for it. I will eventually, and there's plenty of stuff on the horizon. So, I made a list of stuff in progress to give me a sort of visual reminder and a much-needed kick in the ass that I actually am doing something! Here's where things stand at the moment for 2016:
- A short novel is under review with a small press publisher for publication. The sample was apparently good enough that the editor recently asked for the full manuscript. If the story is not a good fit for this publisher, there are other avenues I can explore, so we'll see what happens there.
- LET GO - Published
- Black Site - Published in CLONES: The Anthology, pending solo publication
- Broken Shells - pending publication
- Novel - in progress
- The Marque - pending solo publication (originally published in Crime & Punishment)
- Preservation - pending solo publication (originally published in The Cyborg Chronicles)
- REDACTED - in progress, expected publication late 2016/Q1 2017
- Audiobook edition of Revolver - in progress, release TBA
To top it all off, while doing yard work yesterday inspiration struck. I came up with a cool idea for a post-apocalyptic natural horror short story, which I'll probably work on once Secret Project is finished and then leap back into the novel.
None of this even takes into account the advance copies of books I need to read and review. Or the fact that all of this must be balanced against working full-time and having a family.
And yet, yeah, somehow, for whatever reason, I honestly felt like I wasn't doing enough.
Ultimately, I've decided I'm OK with where things are at presently. If my output for 2016 is a bit diminished, then I have to be fine with it. I may still be able to get one or two of these projects out by year's end. If not, then 2017 will be a banner year for me in terms of published stories!